I wake up on Tuesday morning unable to turn my head to the left. Sleeping on your neck wrong in the night just bites the big one in the morning. It feels like a tire wrench is between my muscles going down my neck. Unable to move. When you have had to deal with chronic pain for years, being on every known drug to stop the pain, finding out you have Celiac so most of what you eat, take for meds and anything else that goes through the digestive track doesn't get absorbed was an eye opener. My pain doctor lost his license. I didn't ask why. So my primary care doctor took over my very complex case, Auto-Immune Disorder #7 Hashimoto Syndrome. It's Hypothyroidism and I am suppose to have trouble over eating and I am skinny as a rail. I have a major self-esteem issue. I don't like myself. Lots of survivors of abuse feel that way. I am 44 and live with my ex-husband, he is a great guy. Understanding, caring, however been a caretaker for too long. He needs his own life, the life he was meant to live. I have tried to meet other men and yet each time, I find a suitable person they turn out to be a dirt bag. Here is a picture of a man, I think pretending to be a Doctor of Neurology. He grilled me like a Spanish Inquisitor the first night we talked said nothing about himself. He is from New York, works at a hospital associated with a University. I had another bad experience with from none other than New York. They both live in Manhattan. Both said similar things to me, I'm yours, "you won me today" I want you to be mine, me to be yours, I want to fall in love with the whole Jane etc. My ex and I said how spooky it was they sounded the same. See the first guy J, a Marine had sent me pictures of him that were 10 or more years old. After months of talking on the phone, emailing, I had a conference in New York for Fashion Bloggers and it was the perfect time to meet J. When he picked me up he looked like his father or even his grandfather. The first words out of his mouth were, "Disappointed?" OMG yes, I had flown with this Doctor from Brazil in first class to NY, she might as well have been a model. Beautiful soul and beautiful girl. So young and so loving. She looked at me after I met him and pulled me back saying "don't go with him" I was so embarrassed I didn't know what to do. I won't tell the entire story all I will say is J was no gentleman when I wouldn't sleep with him, he reacted like a child and put me in danger. Now I have Dr. Stephen J de Rothschild, says he went to MIT, then Harvard Med no records. This is a professional liar. Here is his "Doctor Badge" looks like he could have made it himself. He tries to come off as some superior man, and needlessly to say asked me for pictures I did not feel comfortable sending him. A deal breaker, however I am a hopeless romantic and thought we would be the perfect match. All lies. He demanded the photos or would end our relationship. Emotional Blackmail wouldn't you say. My friend had put up this profile and she embellished a bit and I didn't even know she had done this to me. When he contacted me he asked is this true and now looking back I think it was J with a new profile, and was seeking revenge. How sad it is when people are so shallow and don't have anything better to do than plot something so awful b/c they were rejected. He maintains he works at this hospital which I have contacted and nobody by that name works there, I have sent the badge asking if he is a real person or not. I am going to pursuit this so he doesn't do it to someone else out there as naive as me and still believes in the human race.